Thursday, 22 October 2009

3mths old

Hannah is 3 mths old, just 2 days away. She has 'ballooned' quite nicely now, chubby on the arms and thighs, just like her mum, and brother too.

I had to search through new clothes for her cos everything has become tight fitting for her now. How fast they grow, solely on breast milk!

Unfortunately, she still doesn't sleep through the night. She wakes up for feeds, sometimes, stays awake at unearthly hours, like 5.30a.m. this morning! I would be very grumpy for the big part of the day whenever she does that.

But good natured her, she can play on her own on her cot for long periods of time, and only really wails when she wants to sleep, and feels uncomfortable, like wanting to burp and puke milk, which she still does it very often, not half as horrible as Nathan when he was little though.

Nathan adores her, likes kissing her around the face and esp the head. He stopped asking to carry her, knowing quite well mummy is going to say 'no' again. I try to spend time with him when she sleeps, which means little or no sleep for me at all. I can only do that during his nap time, and hopefully, coincides with hers. The worst horrible days are when she wakes while nathan naps. I have no time for myself.

I'm fixing day with mum to baby sit the kids while I do some exercise, like today, I managed a swim for 25 mins, nathan sat on his bike, didn't move much, and hannah was happy in her pram, just after a feed.

I realise I really do need to work out those fats, and detox to release stress too, i feel so much better after some swim ... more to come. Thanks to Mom.

Tuesday, 13 October 2009

Bintan Lagoon Wk end 10-12thOct

We left on Sat morning to catch a ferry which took us less than an hr to get there. We asked our friends, Cherly and Edward with their children, Jonah and Emma along. Our children are of the same age, and that is probably our starting pt of friendship.

We enjoyed sunny weather throughout our stay. The villa was big and nice. We could live with alittle rust, a dirty green pool, malfunctioning stove (on our last morning) and a few other hipcups. We only bid $120 for it anyway.

Nathan had great fun playing with sand. Initially, he was apprehensive about the crashing waves, but as I held him firmly, he relaxed and was reluctant to leave the sand for more than an hr.

Meals weren't fantastic. And I had some kind of insect attack, more than 15 bites on one leg and a few more on the left leg and hands ... no tan, many bites. How sad.

Thank God for safety. And a great family time.

Wednesday, 7 October 2009

Smiley Hannah

Thanks to God, that Hannah is generally very easy going, smiles alot and doesn't cry unnecesarily. Sometimes I get frustrated with her due to my own tiredness or stress from Nathan, but she is totally innocent, even when she still wakes me up at twice in the mid night hours.

She's growing well, chubby cheeks and tummy. I was comparing the two kids' baby pictures, none of Nathan's was smiley at all. Both LC remembers him as a very grumpy boy who often frowns, whatever he's thinking... I do not know. He only started smiling and laughing more as he grows older, beyond age of 1.

On the contrary, Nathan is getting me all stressed out alot lately. We paid for one term of school fees, and he refused to go.I can't get him to put on his uniform at all. That's difficult. Maybe I'm alittle loose on that, and not determined for this new term, taking in mind that he had to adjust to new baby and new house, but some Jan 2010, I would insist and there's no escaping. May God give me grace to execute that. And mei mei would also be older then, easier to carry around on the sling, and hopefully, happier still.I'm really looking forward to the day when nathan starts school, and I can have one on one with Hannah, just mother and daughter.

Coming wk end holiday.

This would be our first trip overseas with Hannah - to Bintan Lagoon resort. LC managed to book a bungalow house over the wk end. And mum and her friend, and Cherly and family are coming along. How nice. My friendship with Cheryl is less than a yr, we became friends, really because our kids are of the same age, elder a boy, and younger a girl, and our ages are similar too, plus, we attend the same church. I read in one of those books, which suggests that best friends can be made when we start having children, not forsaking the older friends though.

I'm looking forward to the trip, to more sun and sand play, a relax wk end without having to nag at LC about his work, and simply, have a good family time together.

snapfish deals

I was glad I procrastinated developing pictures for baby Hannah and nathan's. Developing 5R costs as much as a dollar from the shops. But with snap fish, at least during their promotions, I got 50 per cent discount, just with a click. Each piece is less than 50 cents, to me, that's a great discount. I was so happy, funny me.

Wednesday, 30 September 2009

Sept 30th

LC was on half day today. HDB first app to sell our flat. On hind sight, LC mentioned that we would have cost savings if we've rented it out instead, but you never know who you'll be renting to, and to much hassle with that sort of arrangement, better come clean with it.

In an hr, we were done. Nathan missed his 3rd day of sch, decided to hang out together, shopped at Best denki, bought water filter and tower fan... 2 things I've been thinking of for a long time. My shopping list is finally quite complete for the new hse, except for my frames for the pictures, to be decorated at one side of the wall, and photos to develop for baby Hannah and baby Nathan... each one of us is only babes once, so i've decided to frame up nathan's baby photos all over again.

Tuesday, 29 September 2009

New house - Compas Heights

We moved in over a long wk end, sept 19, we spent our first night at the new place. We smoothly transited nathan to his own room, he kinda of liked it. He was too exhausted to rebel, he slept through the night. Hannah has her own room too.

New furnitures, and fresh paint, everything looks perfect.

I like the convenience of this location. A walk to the train and cold storage, and hair cut too. I had a swim at the pool the next sunday morning. Now that I can simply walk down to the pool without having to pack the extras.

Daddie also brought nathan down for a swim. I wished I could do that more often with him.

Putting up the frames is challenging, Nathan and Hannah's rooms are done, left with the family potrait and some paintings to be put up in time... to make the new house more homely. Can't wait to have guests over soon.

Nathan's first day of school

We've decided to register him at Dayspring kindergarten, located at end puggol road. First day, LC took half day off, we drove him there, and it was my first time seeing the school. Big bungalow house, fan operated, which is my preference, disease won't spread too rapidly, but poor nathan, brought home another few mozi bites from school. He crieda alittle when I left him, but stopped shortly after.

Second day, I walked him to the bus stop to wait for the sch bus. He was thrilled before the bus came. But when he saw it coming and I was about to leave him, he wailed. I felt so sad, as if he was being kidnapped, bus auntie assured me he was alright after a while.

Nathan had to go through so many adjustments these few months, new baby, new house, new school, all at one go, he's been behaving weird, not as happy as he used to be, or is he just growing up? I often pray for extra care and patience with him cos I know it's been really hard on him. Whenever I can, it's mummie and boy's time.

Wednesday, 16 September 2009

The Extra help

Last week was the school holidays, and my mom came every day to help out.

What a difference!!

This is one lesson I've learnt, with nathan, I was managing well by myself, but with a second one, any help is appreciated.

She brought nathan out to the library once, and to the park on two occasions. He loved it. At least she's tried out bringing him out on her own, even took a bus together. That was his first bus trip in Singapore. I haven't a chance to do that yet with him.

We went up to our new place, then lunch at compass point. Then to plaza sing to shop for some curtains. That took more than an hour, and hannah was tough to handle. Nathan was fighing seats with other children. My mom got a shock. On another occasion, we went to ikea tampines and did some shopping. This time, both kids were manageable, cos hannah slept through, and nathan sat sleepily on the trolley. We shopped in PEACE.

With this house move, I need every help I could find, to pack the boxes, clean up, and attend to the kids, and checking renovation works too ... oh what a bother cos the female asst was a pain. Hopefully the cost is not a shock after all the changes.

I must learn how not to brave it out on my own, but be humble enough to admit 'i need help.'

Out on my own with 2

5th week was the first time I attempted to bring both kids out on my own, managing the new pram, and driving. Just to J8 to meet LC for dinner, did a little shopping too!

Then, second attempt was a trip to the library. To and fro for over an hour on my own. Hannah just woke once to feed, then sat comfortably in the pram to sleep and play. Nathan loves it at the library, he would fetch a book from my hands, one of my selection, then runs to and back from the table, piled them up high and wait for me to sit with him to read one at a time until we finish the whole pile. Often, I had to rush off and borrow them home.

Yesterday, we met with 2 other moms, wendy and jasmine and Dome, Bishan for lunch. We have 2 kids each, with varying ages. Nathan just sat in his chair. We shared a plate of pasta, his favourite dish, and treated him to apple crumble with gelato ice cream, since he was so well behaved. Other kidss gleamed with jealousy. Hannah slept through, only woke once to feed, and wendy's mom helped to cuddle her for a while.

We had a good time, only didn't get a picture of us together, cos Nathan 'acted' out again, nearly tearing from not wanting a shot. Strange. he would only take pictures with mei mei, not anybody else. I'm still reading his changing temperaments.

7th week

Hannah is yet 2 mths old, but she has grown to be a really cute chubby girl. Many times, we want to love her much and kiss her more, but whenever Nathan is near, we're very conscious, and always include him in the hugs and kisses, so the second child always tends to have her beloved moments shared by the elder one, wonder if this is the way to do it??

Nathan has kinda of adjusted to Hannah's presence now, past 2 wks were horrible, needing attending from meal time to toileting, and sleep times, but this week, things have turned for the better, thank God for that, otherwise, mommie would collapse quite terribly.

Hannah on the contrary is a healthy glowing girl. She's really easy going, smiles and giggles, only cries or makes some noise when she needs to feed or sleep. She is beginning to stay awake longer and plays on her own, lying on her back and watching the cot mobile go round and round above her. In short, she's a darling.

2 more days at Bishan

This morning, Salvation army's coming to view some furnitures to be donated. We're saying goodbye to our dining table, tv, tv console, our very comfy bed, though it gave us many bruises and knocks on the knees, our study table and shelves, all for 7 yrs!

I'll be biding goodbye to my childhood in one sense, I grew up in bishan since i was 12 when we moved from TPY to Bishan st 11, then to st 23 for the past 7 yrs. I have developed some sentimental values to this place - Bishan, and the beautiful park. I believe I would not say farewell at all, cos welove the library, and the park, we'll prob be visiting or driving through many times from sengkang.

Our house would look strangely tonight without the bed and dining table or the tv. I told Nathan that he would be having his last treat of a show this morning, cos we're expecting people to come and take it away. He looked shocked. But i've prepared him about the move every single day, that he'll be having his own room...I don't know ho much is enough.

Now, gazing at my blue cabinets, I have another surge of emotions rising up, my beloved corner of the house, where I spent a large part of my time, standing there, preparing meals, and cooking up goodies ...

And at our large bedroom, where both nathan and hannah were conceived. We are certainly going to miss this room, and this house!

A house is a house with walls on every side, but it's the people who live in it that makes it a home, the home you want it to be, filled with laughters and memories - hugs, fights, quarrels, and many loving moments too.

We thankGod for many blessed days we have had with each other, and now with our two children, and praying for more blessed days to come, as we watch our children grow up in our new seng kang flat.

What a different morning!

I'm checking emails, updating my blog, drinking a hot cup of coffee, and munching on famous amos cookies.

Unlike many other mornings, when I had to rush to bathe Hannah,and attend to some kind of need from nathan, I have time for myself, since a long long time.

Hannah has developed some sort of routine, waking up every 2 hrly during the nights to feed. Her longest wake is in the morning at around 7.30a.m, I would feed her, let her play for a while, bathe her and rock her to sleep at 9.00a.m. Nathan's been sleeping later these days, and hence a later wake in the morning. By the time I've settled hannah, Nathan would emerge from the room asking for his milk.

I like this routine, hopefully it would continue for a while, so I have time to do qt and spend some time praying and meditating on God's word.

Monday, 31 August 2009

Friend's birthday surprise

Joelle arranged a birthday surprise for Tina this yr. It was special because it was simply a gathering of old time good friends, with our spouses and kids, and to be mother - joelle herself.

We met earlier at her apt, brought some food, decorated it, and patiently waited for the VIP to arrive. Then the party began. We wore eye masks, and there were streamers too. She was touched to tears, what a surprise, she was completely taken aback. Thanks to the well planned organizers.

It was heart warming that we made it a point to be there. It was times like this, when a friend was going through tough times, that we come round to support and encourage, and pray. Seeing the pictures bring back many fond memories, how we have changed in many ways, yet stayed the same in most ways, like the hair styles and the smiles, the height, and sizes too ... incredible.

I was sure blessed to be there.

Saturday, 29 August 2009

Big move

Exactly 3 more wk ends to big move. LC went to lawyer's office yesterday and took the keys! We'll be meeting contractor on sunday to finalise details of what needed to be done in the house, and work will be on the way.

Each night as I feed mei mei, i've been thinking about what to pack and how about to pack. Looking around, there seems to be very little to do, but once i get things going, there is alot to do, have not even got to the clothes and books yet, just packing and repacking my stationery, and some files... many things to throw and give away now, making more room for kids' stuff. Nathan's puzzles actually occupy 2 large boxes, and 1 large box for girl's toys...

I think the clothes will be the easier, just dump everything into the luggage bag. We've arranged for the movers on the 19th sept, and that very night, we'll be spending our night at our new place!

Hopefully, everything goes smoothly. I'm excited.

5 weeks old

How time flies ... my one month confinement was over. Auntie was good, clean and hardworking. Hannah has grown alot during her 4 wks stay here. She's even got a double chin now, how cute. I'm glad auntie left me with a little chubby girl to care for.

I'm 51-52 kg now, 6 more kg to lose. But I'm hardly concerned now. Everyday passed by so quickly, got up in the morning, washed the clothes, prepare lunch and dinner, bathe baby, make milk for nathan, N eat my breakfast!! I must constantly remind myself to care for my stomach first before the kids, if my health collapses, there's nothing left to say... I'm glad God sustained me through one wk without help.

Dad came by 3 times during lunch. Nathan always looks forward to visitors. He enjoys company, also because mummie is always so busy with sister. All he could see now is mei mei needs to be fed. And I always hold her so closely,i think he's jealous to some extend, and tested my patience many times. I have to give him time alone for stories and chats. But he's been good, helping me do some chores, and allowing me some rest time on the bed, he would say, 'oh, poor poor mummie'. which sounded quite funny.

Hannah's been out to grandma's place, and today, we brought her for lunch at Esplanade, and church too! She slept through most of it, only woke up once to feed. I was so glad I went for service, was ministered during songs time.

Reminded me to pray more, worry less, and sing more, especially when I'm stressed, or frustrated.

Tuesday, 4 August 2009

Week 2 Day 14

I got out of the house!

Decided to bring nathan out to the supermarket to buy some fresh vegetables, and his favourite strawberries. I felt good wearing my old clothes, still tight around the bottoms, and fat around the waist, but walking out and about and driving again makes me feel I'm bad to normal.

Nathan always behaves well outside. He just sits in the trolley, and I wheeled him about to get food. He hugged his box of strawberries tightly, and that was all he needed.

I started bathing from head to toe, and wearing my usual shorts and t-shirts, and stopped feeling sweaty all day long. Thank God the weather is changing for the better too, much cooler these days.

Feeding Hannah has been rather easy with auntie helping to sterilise and do the washing. Frees me extra time with nathan and the luxury to just stare at mei mei and adore her.

Week 2 Day 12

Hannah is growing and changing everyday. She makes quite a lot of noise during feeds, especially when she can’t locate her source of milk supply. Once she’s latched, she sulkers contently. She’s so adorable, giving me smiles and giggles, unknowingly.

Nathan adores his sister too, sings her songs and kisses her forehead at least 5 to 6 times a day. ‘Cute mei mei.’ He hasn’t shown any sign of jealousy, just asking many questions about being a baby… ‘can mei mei walk?’ “why can’t I touch mei mei’s eyes?’

I haven’t changed her nappy yet. Just been enjoying good confinement food, resting as often as I’m allowed to (by Nathan), and spending time with him whenever I’m not feeding, or even when I’m feeding, he would sit next to me, talking and singing. I must say he’s doing very well being a bigger brother.

Sunday, 2 August 2009

Princess has arrived!

At 10.30a.m. I felt cramps on my tummy. So I called the doctor, and he asked me to go to the hospital to meet him. I got my ready bag, and brought Nathan with me on a cab.

I had to go to the delivery suite immediately to be strapped to monitor the baby's heart beat and check my contractions. Everything looks just fine. Doctor suggested to induce me, so he inserted the tablet at 11.30a.m.

I felt nothing. Tried walking around, resting, watched TV to draw my mind away... but I was hungry. I literally had to beg for food. They gave me soft diet and fed me porridge. I gobbled it up.

At 4.30pm, still no sign of contraction. Doc came and ruptured my water bag. Contractions started, but very bearable.

Pain slowly seeped in around 8.30p.m. I was 3cm dilated. I was in active labour. I thought I wouldn't be able to bear with the wait for another 7cm more to go, I asked for epidural.

By the time the specialist came, I was so in pain, but he did it very quickly. Almost immediately after he was done with the procedure, the nurses checked on me, I was already 9cm dilated. They rang my doc, and he came instantly, another 15mins, they were getting me ready to push.

For half an hour, I was pushing with all my might, no sign of baby. Another half an hr with assist (vaccum), baby was out. Nurse placed the bloody creature in my arms, I was speechless. She felt so warm and tender, I didn't dare to move an inch. I was just starring at the blood stained baby I had birthed.

I thought I should have been more courageous to bear with labour pains without epidural, didn't know that my cervix was tender, and I could dilate so quickly... I 'suffered' the ill effects of the med, shivered for another hour before it lost its effect. During the entire process of sewing, I felt no pain at all. We could chat, and I saw my gynae hard at work.

It was an amazing experience, something I won't exchange for a c-section, Nothing compares to delivering your own child with your own eyes. And recovery was much quicker too, though the initial pain was more sensitive and tough. Within a week, I could sit on my bottoms, and I almost felt I was back to the same old energetic Caris.

We prayed and gave thanks.

Wednesday, 22 July 2009

Meeting up

Friends have been texting me and wondering if I've given birth and yet announced it to them, and I have to say, I do have many friends who are thinking about me :) Thank God for friends.

This pregnancy is certainly taking longer than everyone anticipated, even for LC and myself. I still recall weeks and months ago when he reminded me to pack my ready bag, and it's been packed and just sitting there, gathering some dust now.

Monday, met with tina and jim for lunch, and she announced her big news, that she's pregnant. Tuesday, we had lunch with joelle at cedele Wheel lock. I've got zoo pass for Glenton and family to go over the wk end, thought they might appreciate a free entry.

Supposed to meet Wendy on wed, but her son fell ill, and she couldn't come. So we went to the supermarket in the morning instead. It was a wet wed. Nathan brought his zoo umbrella along, and learned to shelter himself, he looked absoultely adorable carrying that umbrella, like a grown up boy now.

Productive morning

My cough was really bad this morning when I woke up, but after a nice egg mayo and cheese breakfast, I was suddenly very energetic. Picked up the broom and started sweeping. Last week, I only managed to sweep the floor, today, I even mopped and scrubbed the toilets. Well done, mummy!

I was handsomely rewarded by a well behaved boy. The whole time while I was doing the housework, Nathan sat and read by himself. He fetched the books, one at a time, and read aloud to himself, and of course, I was entertained too, he was so loud!

This is one thing I must congratulate myself for staying home, and developing his keen interest in reading. And puzzles. He could spend a good hr fixing puzzles, and another hr and a half on books. That's 2 hrs off from me, leaving me to eat my breakfast, do qt and pray. And he has learnt that when mummy is praying, he'd better occupy himself with something. I wouldn't want to hide in a closet or room to pray and read the bible, i want him to see me to that, so that in time to come, he would do qt with me too!

Sunday, 19 July 2009

39th week

Visited the doc this morning. Everything looks fine. Doc advised that we should make a decision to induce the baby is she doesn't arrive on time. Over due babies have complications... this doc often scares me with horror stories, but I know he means well, that he is cautious and wants us to have a safe delivery.

Weighing 62kg now, forgot to ask about the wt of the baby, the last I heard was 3.1kg, a few wks back. He just mentioned she's a good size, perhaps it's also an estimate, so if it's not a concern, he wouldn't say further.

Doc enjoys nathan's company, bounced him on his lap today. And told him silly stories about the dinosaur, and his plastic toy. I can see that this doc loves children, wonder how big his kids are now??

Met Tina and Jim for lunch at Dino cafe, Tina announced that she's 4wks pregnant, wow! Praise God, hopefully the blood test on Thursday is positive, and she would be able to carry the baby well. All in God's hands, whatever God puts together and intends, let no man fail it. Amem.

Wednesday, 15 July 2009

other people centered

I was reminded at Mum's BS today that we should be other people centered, especially towards our loved ones, and those who are yet in the family of Christ.

Often times we are preoccupied with our kids, work and daily tasks that we seemed to have abandon the more important issues in our christian lives - to share the good news of Jesus Christ. We ought to be as excited as when we found our first love with the Lord, and keep on telling others about it, and not stagnate, otherwise, our love becomes stale and unmeaningful.

Thank God that at least for a good start, I'm reading the Bible daily and committing to prayer, and Nathan leaves me alone for a good amount of time. Perhaps I should start QT with him too. He is beginning to ask many qns, as I read about Jesus's death and resurrection with him from the Bible. He learned about thorns on Jesus's head, and dying on the cross for our sins. I find it hard to explain the plain facts, but just keep repeating them, hopefully one day, he will internalise the truth himself.

Tuesday, 14 July 2009

Cross Stitch completed!

Yeah, I thought I was not able to finish in time for the birth ... but this pregnancy is taking much longer than i expected, and becos Nathan came so early, everyone is anticipating Hannah earlier too, we are all waiting ... perhaps she will be on time this time, 2 more wks to go, tick tock tick tock...

'HANNAH' is done! Gonna go sport lite get a poka dot fabric, and frame it up :) I'm so happy, mission accomplished.

Sunday, 12 July 2009

38th week

Little baby is still growing in my tummy. This has been one pregnancy experience, didn't imagine that i would carry her this far, thanks to God, hopefully, she's an easier baby than nathan since he was a premie. I have a good feeling about it. And as I was sharing with some others, that I really do want to experience labour, God's intented, though a result of sin, but I believe that God would give women strength to pull through labour pains, cos he knows how much we can take!

Another exciting news is, we sold our Bishan flat, on 11th July, 2009, Saturday. A young couple bought it the same day they saw it, and we didn't have to pay a single cent to the agent, cos she represents them, and she is also their cousin. Another very smooth and pleasant experience, as we prayed, as we bought our sengkang apt. Thank God for that!

Shopping at Ikea today was fun too, bought lightings for the kids' room, some storage boxes, and took photos of possible tv consoles that we would like to build in our new home. I've been thinking about the colour of paint... moving into a new house and different location is exciting, hopefully for Nathan too, that he would like his new room.

Wednesday, 8 July 2009

Buying and Selling

It's rather thrilling to sell something online... not necessarily the money collected, but the idea of decluttering and getting alittle something in return.

Via singapore motherhood.com, you don't know how much is going on out there, the things people need, and wanting to get rid of...

I sold 2 hot pot and a vacuum cleaner, all of which were sitting in the cabinets for the past years, not used.

Told LC that this is getting fun, so long as it doesn't take too much time away from Nathan.

Monday, 6 July 2009

Visit to Doc

37th week, Dr Poon congratualted me for carrying the baby for this long, and now, the baby is fully grown! Weights approximately 3.1kg. She's moving alot lately, esp after meals, and tasty soups. Nathan loves kissing the tummy, and sometimes gently touching it, he says, 'hello, mei mei Hannah.' How loving. I have a good feeling that he's going to be a nice big brother!

I'm feeling the weight more each day, weighing 61kg now, still putting on. Hopefully not much more, can't imagine, and don't want to think how I'm going to lose it all, just eat balance and healthy meals, hannah will benefit from the nutrients, my shape, well, will work harder down the road.

Sunday, 5 July 2009

37 week

Baby girl seems contented staying in there. I think she enjoys music as much as Nathan too. Felt her bouncy moves during praise and worship for 2 sat in a row. She just moves particularly often during those 2 hrs.

I thought I felt contraction on friday night. Perhaps I was over tired, from cooking jap curry rice and bbq chicken wings for our friends who came over for dinner that night. We stayed and chatted till mid night.

Everyone was in a mood to share, and the night could go on and on. Emily, as always, very encouraging. Thank God she is recovering very well, got her voice back, and speaks normally now. She shared about her recent mission trip to Cambodia, her student life, and how God has been with her throughout this voice surgery and therapy process, making her come out stronger spiritually ever.

Her sharing reminded to be persistent in prayer. Committing the best bit of the morning to God before anything else start. Giving our best to the Lord, indeed. Especially during this time when I'm anxiously waiting for baby's arrival, I should learn to discipline myself to do just that, praying and intercession!

Tuesday, 30 June 2009

Craving for steak

I suddenly started having cravings, and an enormous new appetite, eating nonstop all afternoons. I'll try to keep in mind to eat healthily, to reduce massive weight gain. Already at 36 weeks, i'm 60kg. Hope it'll stay that way till birth,don't want to shoot above that....

Went United sq with Nathan, bought him 2 trucks from toysrus, then cold storage to get food. Got myself 200g of stir fry beef, and some butterhead lettuce. I had the sudden craving for a steak sandwich. Rather than buying from subway, I thought i'll make fresh myself, not necessarily cheaper, in fact more work, more costly, but tasted yummy.

Another half portion for tomorrow!

Monday, 29 June 2009

Constipating everyday

At this stage of pregancy, what I have always feared most is constipation. No matter how much I try to hydrate myself with water and fruit, I still have that slight need to push... and it gets me very tensed up in the toilet, find myself asking,' Hannah, are you okay in there?"

Still keeping my fingers crossed that I am in the good hands of God Almighty.

Friday, 26 June 2009

Energized week

I haven't felt so full of energy for a long time, perhaps even more than my second trimester...

I kept Nathan at home all week, cos it's childcare week at school and no formal lessons, plus with hand food mouth, all the kids are lumped together this week, not a good idea to be in school at all.

Anyway, it was going to be his last wk at Pats, he seemed very happy staying home and going out with me, no complains or sighings about missing his teachers or friends, not even mentioned their names, i wonder if he has forgotten about them altogether so quickly?

Also decided not to go for Marymount kindergarden, and continue keeping him at all. Too many changes in a month, new baby and house moving, don't want him to have to adjust to new school only for a term. There should be more good than harm staying home, I just have to be reminded to keep him meaningfully occupied for part of the day. He play independently for prolonged hours, esp when he knows I'm busy in the kitchen, he just knows that he has to keep out of my way.That, I must really commend him for his good behaviour.

we had programmes everyday for the entire week. Tuesday, we visited Adeline who's back from India for summer break with the girls. Wed, out to Botanic gardens with Jonah for a picnic, and thursday, with Jaeden to Jacob ballace children garden for water play. Nathan had fun with the boys! They need do very little, just some wide open space to run around and about, my boy is more than happy. The weather was perfet for these outdoor activites all week.

Friday, the cleaner called in sick, and I picked up my broom and mop and did housework myself! I'm incredible. Felt thoroughly exhausted now, esp the legs and backs, but God is keeping my in good shape, and I'm very contented now

There are still things to get ready for the baby, like unpacking the change table, washing baby stuff, and getting bottles out from the bags ... the list seems endless now. One step at a time, Caris.

35 week

Visit to Dr Poon with Nathan on a Monday morning. Dr said the baby looks alittle skinny, and urged me to eat more. I thought I was eating quite normally, but he said it wasn't enough, should be 50 per cent more than normal, ok ...?

I still feel rather bloated during and after each meal, forbidding me to indulge more than I wanted to. Maybe it's due to heart burn and general fatigue at this stage of pregnancy.

But I should keep in mind to eat more, anyway, during the last trimester, most fats should be going to the baby instead of myself, i supposed?

Saturday, 20 June 2009

More purchase

What a busy period this is... bought the new house, sale confirmed on 5th June, met the lawyer on 18th june, option exercised the next day, paid up the 4 per cent of the house, there's NO Turning Back now.

One big load off our heads, but we do like the apt, move in condition, hardly any thing to build in, only to take off ... and great location, just further away from town.

Bought a new leather sofa today at $1650, not my best bet, a compromised one, hoping for a nicer dining table and tv perhaps? We're going for the basics, really, easy care and maintenance.

Shopping is tiring, esp when you're spoilt for choice, and when there's a budget on hand... and with nathan, our very active boy running around, forcing us to multi task, keep an eye on him, and looking for furnitures ... not easy at all, but we managed.

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

Morning Devotion

Setting aside the first best part of the day to God is so absolutely necessary, and I've been enjoying it, after readind, I would pray, and think of people to pray for - it requires a huge amount of discipline, something which I've not been doing for a long time, starting again is hard work. First thing first, got to keep the Bible open on the dining table, so that after breakfast, I would look into it. It's too easy to be forgetful, and everyting other thing seems like a better idea to commit my time, but for the love of Christ and my committment as a christian, studying the word is very necessary.

Being reminded of his great love and compassion, slow to anger, and constantly wanting to draw his fallen people back to himself, our God is a faithful God. (from bk of Joel)He wants us to relend our hearts to Him tearing it open, be broken inside, and he desire our repentance more than sacrifice.

Am I going to hit 60 soon?

I've been stagnated at 58kg for almost a month, but last night, after a hearty fish soup dinner, I thought I saw 59kg, close to 60kg.

34 wk now, energy level seems to be on the high, thinking of walking down the malls before the second arrives, yet better think twice, in case of crampiness or muscle ache, of which I 'suffered' a scare for the past 2 wks.

There's really nothing much to buy, just to statisfy my own cravings of new leather bag and platform shoes, and maybe some more bras. Retail therapy? But I don't even feel depressed of any sort, just feeling slightly bored at home now. Or maybe I should pick up a cross stitch and work on it - my dear Hannah.

We just thought of her Ch name - Han Le, not sure i'm going to write that yet. LC just came up with it one night, and I love it from the first sound of it. I've broadcasted it to everyone the next day. We have our first born - tian le (add joy) and now the second, -han le (full of joy), YES!

Getting Grandma involved

Grandma returned from Cambodia yesterday and visited us today. For the first time, I initiated her bathing nathan. I had to stand and watch and give instructions, then nathan was happy being showered by her.

Afternoons are easy now. After lunch, milk feed, I get to bathe, then nap. When he wakes up, he watches his favourite programme, then it's reading with mummy.

At 34 wks, I'm feeling good, alot of energy, just taking extra care not to exert unnecessarily. Squarting instead of bending over, and walking slowly.

I have been setting aside time in the morning to read and pray, and that has helped me set the tone for the rest of the day. I have been it my committment to give the best part of the day to God first, and that is very important.

Sunday, 14 June 2009

Birthday celebration!

3 of us were born in June - Gerald, Grace and I, in 3 subsequent years!

Joelle kindly hosted us, with starters, and main course, plus dessert. It was sumptuous, would like to devour more, but felt so bloated that I simply could not, even the yummy looking choc cake!

The fellowship was great, always so at ease with this bunch of childhood friends. And now, sharing our joys with 2 preggies. Nathan was having so much fun playing with Sara that he could barely bid good bye.

We are quite at different stages of our lives, but God has led us through so many walks, and we're where we are today, some, mummies.

Thank God for preserving us.

Argh, body ache!

That was a busy week. I hd appointment with Poon on Monday morning, visited Mavis at her home on Tuesday morning, brought Nathan out to play with Beth after his noon nap that day, fishing with Jonah on wed evening, and by wed night, I was aching all over, limbs, neck, and back, could hardly get up and down the from seating positin, and even harder, bending over to pick things up, climbing up and down stairs, getting up and down bed, all became a great struggle over night!

I was alittle nervous about the massive joint ache all of a sudden, but thank God for his all surpassing peace, I was just over tired and rested, rather than calling up the clinci and get panic altogether again.

By Monday, I was almost back to my normal self.

Monday, 8 June 2009

Scare

Last Thursday, June 4th, I had a scare!

It was all fine and good the entire morning, in fact, I was just sitting down and using the pc,oh, was it too much radiator there?

There was an acute pain on my right tummy, and each time I stood up, it was so so painful. I was sweating all over, and called everyone - LC, my dad to pick Nathan up from school, and Dr Poon. Good grief he was back from his holiday and just opened the clinic that very day.

The baby was fine, and eveything looked okay from the scan. He gave me some medicine to ease the contractions, and anti biotics for my cough. Pain was gone by next day noon.

I thought for a moment that I was going to give birth on my birthday, but thank God he preserved me :)

I can do nothing to alter changes in my body but continue to trust God that indeed, he's the creator of my baby girl, he will knit it and form it according to his special design, and all I can do is to trust in his souverignty.

Saturday, 6 June 2009

My 32nd Birthday


On 5th June, Friday, LC took the day off. We booked a duck tour! It was a 60min land and sea tour of Marina Bay and City Hall. It was a one time occasion experience, and we thought nathan would enjoy it.

Lunch was at a French restaurant at Demsey Rd. I had fish, and LC had duck. Nathan loved the complimentary bread, and that was all he ate. Dessert was yummy too. Chocolate cake and gingerbread pudding with ice cream.

With a toddler and a pregnant woman, outings had to be kept short. By lunch time, we were beat, and Nathan actually fell asleep before we arrived home.

The day was eventful. That very night, we viewed a unit at Compass Heights, and we confirmed the deal the same night. It had an unblocked view, windy, 3 bedrm and a good size kitchen. I considered the apt well maintained. The price was on a higher side, but LC did the calculations, thought it is a reasonable investment. We are happy with the decision.

I'm looking forward to the move. There are many uncertainities, and there are going to be lots of changes, with the new baby coming, and the Big Move, but we're trusting God for our health, and every decision making.

It wouldn't be difficult to remember when we bought the place - day before my birthday!

Wednesday, 3 June 2009

New cleaner

The new cleaner came this morning. She's very chatty, likes to talk with me, even though she sees me busy at the computer, obviously, more eager to want her to concentrat her household chores.

Pregnancy been good. Esp thankful to God for my good looks, no swelling or pain anywhere, except for the nagging cough which has been bothering for months, and some sleepless nights. I would be so afraid I might go into labour just coughing my lungs out ... but God has preserved me.

She's a christian too, or at least she said she attends a church in Korea. An auntie in her mid 40s, spent a thorough time scrubbing the toilets, no comments about sweeping and mopping. Today, she disliked my mop so much, she wanted a cloth and went her fours instead.

But i'm more satisfied with this cleaner than the one last wk, think I should just close one eye, and make her service for me a more pleasant one. We have to learn to give and take sometimes, and not mind too much, esp when you know you need her service.

Thank God for sending this cleaner to my house.

Saturday, 30 May 2009

Wk end chalet



We cancelled our Langkawi trip, so we had a Pasir Ris chalet to have some fun with family together.

I had the most fun watching nathan play - on the swing, climbing the spider web bridge, balancing on the suspension bridge, and driving his hot fire engine. He likes being the driver, only the driver, and all of us had to be the passenger or some sort. He couldn't bear to leave it, though he sat on it twice.

I also esp enjoyed watching him and LC draw on the sand. The simple things in life, without much cost, just spending quality family time together, surely made my heart really glad.

Dinner by the beach was lesser than expected. I had wanted some seafood dinner to celebrate my brother's birthday, but we ended up eating beef kuay teow, pineapple rice, and pasta for dinner. Food quality was not commendable, but the exp of dinning by the beach was a great draw.

We turned in by 10pm.

Thursday, 28 May 2009

Mansionette

We were so close to getting the mansionette at Blk 223, diagonally across our blk, faces the park, closer to the train by a min (acc to LC), but the other party sealed the deal that very night we decided to make the offer. The size and view was right, plus location, but we were deeply considering the stairs, not conducive for our young kids.

It' God's will that we didn't manage to get it. Though it was one apt we really like and seriously considered and liked. It was value for money indeed.

House hunting is a tiring affair, and anyway, this is not the best time to pack and move, esp to unfamiliar locations, i still like this area best, but the price is not favourable for us.

All in God's hands.

Cleaner Lady is here!

She's so punctual, just when I stepped in the door, she's right there. And at first, I was alittle annoyed, she complains that I haven't swept the floor, that the broom in too small, not wide enough, and I don't have the right cleaning detergent for the bath room etc... But Cheryl's right, she's very thorough, i mean, the fact that she's been doing cleaning job for the past 20 yrs ... who's to complain, i'm glad i got her, hopefully she doesn't mind coming...


It's nice to be able to sit down and blog, email, read, and having the house cleaned up. Housework takes up time, and very strenuous now at my stage of pregnancy, and LC don't have the time and energy to do it wk ends, and I don't want him to spend the time away from nathan and I during our precious wk ends too...

This is the right decision! $12 an hr, I really have no complain.

Wednesday, 27 May 2009

31 week

Visit to Poon once every fortnight now. He withdrew some cells to test for presence of bacteria in my vagina, saying that if positive, he may have to put me on antibiotics, and more dose during birth. I've never heard of that before, but apparently, it's standard practice, and the bacteria might harm the foetus if left not treated.

Baby is growing well, estimated to be 1.8kg, and I weigh 58kg now, put on 12 kg! Eating my meals quite normally, try to eat more fruit for the fibre, drink more milk and soya, and even religiously drink the anlene milk powder nightly, becos I find myself getting hungry in the middle of the night. Ice cream is still irresistable.

Friday, 22 May 2009

Daddy is sick

For coming to 8 mths now, LC's been healthy. Each time he's down, esp with fever, he's almost 'crippled', can't function at all, just eats and sleeps ... very tiring for me, caring for two boys and no one to help out with nathan. And he always chooses the wk end to be down!!! When sat and sun are the days I look forward to most, having a nice slow break fast and shopping ... not this wk end.

I'm having mild constipation this few days. Thankfully, still managed to poo daily, but really hard and dry, and needed a lot of pushing. I'd better start gobbling down more fruit, haven't been eating them lately due to bad night cough. First thing at market tomorrow is to shop for fruit to make juices for daddie and I.

Thursday, 21 May 2009

Burger King breakfast

I got to sit and eat breakfast from my favourite fast food store - Burger King at Plaza Singapura.

There was a tight jam along PIE, exit at Stevens road, but after Bt Timah, the drive along orchard Rd was a breeze. Drove pass all traffic lights from taka to Plaza Sing, how incredible was that?

But, hardly any shop was opened. My main purpose was to buy a slow cooker, a smaller sized one for nathan's lunches, since he started eating porridge when he returns from school. To no avail, i ended buying other things - a nigh dress for myself, and a soft book with finger puppets for Bethany one yr old birthday bash this wk end.

Purchases from Marks and Spencer's sale were splendid, got my favouite sultana cookies, 2 tan tops, and strapless bra! Happily shopping around with a trolley, ran out of time to go sportlight.

Time in the mornings is short, despite the fact that I do have a good 5 hrs to kill. It all depends what time nathan is sent to school, and how much time i've left to spend.

It has been fulfilling week.

Wednesday, 20 May 2009

Bird Nest

Mum has been pestering me to boil it to drink since I was first pregnant with nathan, and this second round of pregnancy, she was determined. She bought many packets from Malaysia, and loaded my fridge with them.

The other day, she just brought a small clay pot to boil the bird nest, but has yet come down to cook it, i decided to be adventurous and tried it out myself today! And got a big scolding, cos I did everything wrong, and probably just threw away at least $20 bucks of her hard earned money.

I didn't take her advise seriously until I researched on the internet of the effects of bird nest on pregant moms and babes, and it turned out, all positive, and very good. I was convinced. Interesting that I didn't take to her advice as well as what I read from the web sites ... maybe I should learn to give ear to her more, though more often than not, it frustrates me.

Another advice that I took was to boil porridge with ikan billies. I did it today for nathan's lunch, and he ate it up very well, thought I should have started cooking lunch for him, since he hasn't eatn well at school. Nothing makes me happier than seeing him gulp up his food, not just any other cookie or cake, but home cooked nutritious food.

Meet up with friends

3rd week of no work mornings, managed to sit down and schedule for friends' visits. Met up with Carol toh on Monday for breakfast at Tanglin mall. Boy, it is refreshing to be able to sit down and chat for over an hr carefree, without having to rush off with a tod pestering you to leave the table.

Visited Bee at her mum's residence. Haven't seen her for more than 4 yrs??? Or perhaps, she has changed job a couple of times, got married, and now, with a 3 mth old boy, Bennet, a cute little chubby thing. She looked great, a happy mother.

Going to meet up with Jaz Koh and Jaeden at Forum playground on friday, cos it's founder's day at nathan's school, wanna bring him out to play with someone.

Belated Mother's Day gift

I got my bread maker!

This was one of the electrical good I wanted to get when we got from UK, cos Soo's bread maker had served us so well, with pizza dough, yummy lemon cake and garlic bread. Then I made up my mind to get one when we returned home.

The decision was delayed for almost half a yr, and I'm so glad I grabbed one at a good sale at Takashimaya, the last place I thought I would get anything. Tried Robinsons, and Tangs, but shopped to no avail, I was relieved I hadn't rushed to get it earlier, else I wouldn't have benefited from the offer.

I hope to put it to good use, at least for the family, cos my dear little son is a bread boy, till today, he still loves eating bread, esp those with raisins and berries.

Tuesday, 19 May 2009

So into cream

I think the job of a sales assistant is very important, esp for people like me.

Shopping around this morning, and becos of the friendly and helpful asst i met at the stores at guardian and Faceshop, i bought exactly what they recommended, face mask and body cream. They weren't pushy at all, just informative, and very convincing, haha, i'm easily taken in.

My hands and feet are getting way too dry, and hurty sometimes from the frequent washing and cleaning, i terribly need the cream to replenish the lost moisure. Even bought bedrm slippers to cushion my heels. This second pregnancy is weighing on me alot more than the first, only 30th wk now, 2 more mths to go?

Got my mat pads and disposable panties too, ready bag all ready packed!

Monday, 18 May 2009

The Swine Flu

It started in Mexico, or maybe US, and then spread to Europe, then Thailand, HK and now, Malaysia. Over 100 people have gotten the virus in Japan. At home, the Red alert came back ON. If anyon gets it here, all schools and maybe offices may close.

This virus spreads fast from human to human, but it's not fatal.

Whenever we hear of such news, we tremble for our kids, and now, pregnant, i fear too... shows the fraility of men, we are but dust, gone with the wind.

May God be Gacious.

New Hair cut





Finally decided to chop my hair. The weather's getting hotter by the day, and I've been tying it up anyway, might as well have a neat cool cut, and my stylist did it great.

We visited Punggol Park for the first time. We brought nathan's new second tricycle there. He refused to try pedalling, only pushed it along walking. I took a picture standing behind the tree, and nathan went, 'me turn now.' He likes being shot, and learned to smile, how handsome.

Sunday, 17 May 2009

New Flat

We've been house hunting for a couple of mths now. After seeing quite a few, we're finally sure of what we're looking for - bigger unit with an unblocked view, and preferable nearer the train, so LC will still have the option of taking the train.

We've viewed some condo, but i've given up hope for a good size unit. There is no reason why I should pay a premium for a pool and tennis courts, and perhaps function rooms and other facilities, for a smaller than expected unit. Size is very crucial to my growing children, to move about, and run!

meantime, realising that it may not be the best time to consider a big move as the baby is going to be due in 2 mths, we're taking it slowly, until we're absolutely sure that is the place we can call it home for the next 10 yrs. Will we ever move out of bishan? I'm wondering...

Thursday, 14 May 2009

29 weeks

This is really quite late starting a blog for the second pregnancy, but time has flown by so quickly, I could hardly sit down to think. Up till now!

Since we returned from UK last October, I've started work and ended after 5mths (21 wks) to be exact. It has been a good experience, gave me great insights into pre school education, and broaden my scope in teaching my toddler.

At 29 weeks, everything's been smooth sailing. Besides some skin rash for 2 mths in mid trimester, baby's growing well, weights approximately 1.3kg, though mummie has put on a considerable 10kg over 7 mths. Everything is upsized now, even LC's shorts can't fit. Dresses are most comfortable, and leggings too.

Buying girls' stuff is fun, pretty and sweet, all pink and purple. Just went to Robinsons sale today to grab more babe's things, like blanket, towels, hankies, detergent etc. Trying as much to recall what's need to be bought. LC just reminded me that I should start preparing my 'ready bag' to be admitted. After the 1st premie, we're more cautious, wanting to be READY when she does decide to have an early call, though we're hoping we can carry her to full term.